Why I Am Posting

I am posting because I feel stuck it is like I can not get out. I am only fourteen and I do not want to return to my house were it feels like everyone wants to mentaly stab in the back. I am bipolar and in less I am on meds i get pissed esily and get about two hour of what every one loves sleep well I am on meds on sunday they made my whole bod shake like i was suger deprived for thrity minutes and then like 45 minutes at the most i end up throwing up all over the parking lot I was so emberssed I am trying tofind the silver lineing these days . Well the only silver lineing I can find is the fact that i get a week away from my sister are are secrtley planing.